I’ve just finished writing a progress report for my PhD which had to be submitted today. I’ve known this was due for a month but it has only just got done. In my defence my workload is ridiculous at the moment, but those of here in this little corner of the internet also know that I’ve been wasting plenty of time hiding in my chair and engaging in behaviours. So now it’s sent I’m asking myself why do I do this to myself? but then a little voice of reason pipes up and says maybe I should be asking that about bulimia and not just my study habits. I should be challenging why I spent two hour earlier eating and vomiting and not just my procrastination tendency.
Why do I do it to myself? My eating disorder. Why do it do it? That’s the topic I should be addressing. Not tonight though, I’m exhausted, but as I summit these work deadlines I need to stop avoiding the real issue and start properly tackling it again.