I can’t quite believe I’m back to the point of needing to focus on one day without purging but somehow here I am. I’m overly full and could easily vomit right now if I went near the bathroom, but I know it is psychological: dinner was a sensible size and I’m only feeling this way as have been purging so much recently. I can ride it out if I try, I just need to distract myself and focus on getting one day down. I’d been managing weeks purge free until this recent slam, it’s so frustrating to find myself back struggling with even a day, but it is what it is and the only way to make it easier is to get to day one and slowly add up from there. I know I have this in me I just need to prioritise it and ride this awful wave.
For those of you also trying to keep head above water these days – you’re not alone in this.