I’m going out for dinner with friends tonight and I’ve been super anxious about it. I’m really trying not to purge at the moment but going out for meals is always a difficult one.
I don’t want to eat too much and then purge.
I don’t want to not eat enough so that I come home and binge and purge.
I don’t want to drink too much that my mood plummets.
I want to be able to enjoy time with my friends and not be obsessing over food//weight/body thoughts.
I’m in a panic trying to find something to wear that I feel comfortable with and I’ve already made myself late.
Some days I can breeze through this, and some days like today it just really gets me. These are good friends. Both know about my ED history and one is aware it’s a little more current than historic at the moment, I don’t know if that’s why. The reason doesn’t really matter though as I am going to
-be mindful of drinking
That’s my pledge to myself for tonight!