After a rough morning/afternoon yesterday I decided to put some of my therapy learning into action.
I did the housework that I wanted to do, I finished the uni work I had set for the weekend (late on a Sunday night as usual!) and I ate a balanced dinner. My throat was killing me but I ate it anyway as that was the next best thing to do.
This morning I tried the same. Despite still feeling rough and ashamed after yesterday’s binge/purge I woke up, faced the day, went to the gym and then went to the library. I was nervous about eating but I know restricting after a binge is not the next best thing so I ate a balanced breakfast, morning snack, lunch, afternoon snack, tea-time hot chocolate and dinner.I agonised over the hot chocolate but I was hungry and had a craving for one and I know id be late having my dinner so I had it and unsurprisingly the world hasn’t ended!
I caught up with the triathlon when home (go GB!) now in bed with alarm set for a gentle swim in morning.
Today was such a better use of my time and I’m pleased I managed to resist behaviours. I find once I give into purging it lasts for a few days but not this time. The ‘next best thing’ worked- I should remember this! Night all x