I have talked before about how lucky I have been to have been supported by a great ED service over the past while. I’ve had a wonderful GP who recently retired and had the most amazing nurse until she left. My current nurse is also great, although in a different way. I am at a healthy weight for me and have stayed the same for about 8 months now (guess that set point theory wasn’t nonsense after all!). I eat regularly and a wide variety. I’m still purging but it’s not as frequent or violent. I’m rarely binging. My appointments have been spread out to monthly and after this mornings session I’m wondering if I’ve come to the end of my road with this service.
I don’t think my nurse has any more to teach me and I don’t need the coaching that I used to. It’s not any reflection on her, just where we’re at together. It’s a positive thing. I am firmly on the road to recovery and maybe it’s time for me to try it without professional supports. I’ll still have my friends (both online and real world) and I also have a healthy body, a much calmer mind and a whole raft of skills to draw on as needed.
I started this blog when I was alone in my recovery as I couldn’t deal with the changes recovery brought. I’ve overcome this fear and taken the leaps that needed taking. I have a feeling now this is the next leap of faith to take.
I’ve an appt in 6 weeks so I’ll talk with my nurse then. If I still feel the same maybe I’ll ask to give it 3 months until next appt and then take it from there.
I’m ready for this and so amazed that I have made it to this point after so many years. Let me be an example that recovery is possible! Hurrah for ED free life!