My purging is getting out of control again. If I’m as committed to recovery as I say I am then I need to do something about it. I know it won’t go away on its own and I know I’m the only person that can make things better.
I need to go back to basics. Bite by bite, meal by meal. No grand declarations that I won’t every purge again, just a commitment to take it one meal at a time and to try my best using the resources available to me. I have six chances everyday (three meals three snacks) to give it a shot so that’s what I’ll do.
I’ve had success with breakfast and morning snack already today. All I need to focus on now is lunch and I’ll deal with the rest as it comes. I’ll keep posting to keep myself accountable (I can’t bear to talk about it with my real life supports at the moment).
The saying goes that you have to chose recovery everyday- I’ve let that slip the last while but I’m picking myself and trying again. Onwards and upwards.