I completely get mindfulness, I understand how it can be beneficial, I have seen the benefits in many people close to me, but when it comes to mindfulness and me I prickle, there is something about being in the moment and focusing on my thoughts that really stresses me out. I tend to be a mile-a-minute thinker (and doer), always working on eight things at once, my head in the past, the future, food/weight (!) anywhere but in the moment. In fact one of my friends who teaches mindfulness to hospital patients describes me as the least mindful person she knows!
But, today I was running and I had reached the top of a hill with glorious views. The sun was shining and I paused to take it in. I turned off my music (I don’t always run with music but I wanted to not be thinking this morning) and I stood there listening to the birds cheep and the leaves in the wind. Such a cliche, but it was actually really nice. Crap- maybe I was wrong and there is something in this mindfulness business for me after all!
I finished the rest of the run without my headphones and while my mind drifted again (to where we’ll eat for dinner when I bring my cousin out for her birthday in a months time!) I did enjoy that little moment of it. Whatever the rest of the day may bring, today has been positive already.